And So It Goes....

"I sit in the back of a bus watching the world grow old
Watching the world go by all by myself
I took a faith full leap and packed up all my things and
All my love and gave it to somebody else

But how do I know if I'll make it through?
How do I know? Where's the proof in you?

And so it goes, this soldier knows
The battle with the heart isn't easily won
And so it goes, this soldier knows
The battle with the heart isn't easily won
But it can be won, but it can be won"


I am ready to get going. I am ready for time to do it's thing, pack it's bag and leave my house. It has overstayed it's welcome.

Here I am in a new place, an unfamiliar, exciting new place and my mind is on one thing. That's gotta change. Things have to change. But things will only change if you WANT them to.

I WANT them to.

I'm holding myself back. I made the leap of faith and moved 2,000 miles away... but my leap doesn't end there. My leap ends when I decide that I am happy with who I am at this very moment.
I have more friends than I know what to do with, I have more support than my heart can handle, I've got so much love that Mr. Webster cannot possibly define how I feel.

Pslam 23:
1 The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.
2 He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,
3 he restores my soul.
He guides me in paths of righteousness
for his name's sake.

No longer do I want....
I'm lying down where He has placed me and I am walking peacefully where He leads me.
He picks me up daily and reminds me that I am not alone....
I do it because of Him...

In Bible times, when a shephards sheep would wander off, he would break one of their legs so that for a while they could not walk... He would carry the sheep for a time and then eventually he would make the sheep learn how to walk on the broken leg. The sheep would stay close to his master for fear of getting lost.

God has broken my legs and placed me in a place that only He could help me out of. He broke my legs, and for a while, He carried me. I am learning to walk again on my broken legs, but I am staying close to Him, for fear of getting lost and getting swallowed up by the world.

I am not scared anymore.
I realize that I will get nowhere without Him.
I know now that God will never put me in a situation that I cannot handle... because if I cannot handle it, He will always provide a way out. He will never leave my side. And He has put people in my life that act in the same way... not judging me for certain decisions, never leaving my side no matter what.

I never question life's situations anymore because EVERYTHING happens for a reason. I'm not going to try and figure those reasons out anymore. I refuse. I'm just going to stay really close to Him and know that I am safe, no matter what happens.

I know you probably wanted more of an update, but to be honest with you, this is the best I could do for right now. You have just seen into the depths of my heart....

LOVE.LOVE.LOVE.

"And so it goes, this soldier knows
(And so it goes)
The battle with the heart isn't easily won
(The war is won)
But it can be won, but it can be won"