Rise up this mornin',
Smiled with the risin' sun,
Three little birds
Pitch by my doorstep
Singin' sweet songs
Of melodies pure and true,
Sayin', ("This is my message to you-ou-ou:")
Singin': "Don't worry 'bout a thing,
'Cause every little thing gonna be all right."
Bob Marley knew what he was talking about. No matter what happens, every little thing is gonna be alright.
I have some pretty crazy questions at the moment. Questions that I am not sure how to ask, questions that I am not sure who could answer, questions that I don't even know are worth asking. But questions still they are. And unanswered questions are just as annoying as mosquitoes.
There are days when I find myelf losing all patience with humanity. I get so irritated by people that treat others as if they are inferior, as if everyone else was placed on this earth to serve them. Why don't you put on someone elses shoes if only for one day. Just try it. Take 5 minutes to listen to someone that just needs to talk. Smile at the stranger on the street. Give that homeless man five bucks and don't think about what he will do with it, but instead be happy that you were able to help someone who needed it more than you.
The last few weeks I have learned a lot about loving other people. It all started a few weeks ago with a church sermon. I learned, probably for the 100th time in my life, that it is impossible to love God and to hate your brother (sister). IMPOSSIBLE. You cannot claim to love God, yet have hate in your heart towards another person.
I don't remember if it was before or after I heard that sermon, but at some point, I got my first tattoo. There was a bit of controversy about it within my circle of friends and family, but I got it nonetheless. It's simple, just on the inside of my left wrist, and it just says Love Wins. Nothing extravagant, but the artwork is beautiful and I am in love with it. This is something I have always lived by before, but now it has a whole new meaning to me.
Today at church, the guy up front that always seems to have the microphone, talked more about love. There was one verse in particular that I read and just fell in love with (you can never be in love with too many things, by the way). It just said "Anyone who doesn't love is as good as dead". THAT'S HOW IMPORTANT LOVE IS. The most important.
Anyways, the point of today's ramblings is the same as I have always told you.... just Love. No matter what. No matter when. No matter hoe awful the circumstances are. It can be the easiest and the hardest thing you will ever do. But I promise you, it will always be the best decision you have ever made.
LOVELOVELOVE
C
Sunday, December 5, 2010
Wednesday, September 1, 2010
I Don't Know As Much As I Thought I Did Back In Highschool...
I just got done with my second journalism class this semester, and I have a confession to make: I have learned more in the last 2 class sessions than I ever did in school. Typical, I guess. I mean, this is COLLEGE after all.
I've been studying and analyzing the first amendment in the Constitution lately. It's amazing. The first 5 words of the first amendment are the most importantt: CONGRESS SHALL MAKE NO LAW....
Of course, you have to read the rest to figure out what Congress cannot do. 1) Congress cannot force any one religion on you. 2) Congress cannot take away your freedom of speech or press. 3) Congress cannot take away the right of the people peaceably to assemble and to petition the government for a redress of grievances.
And all this time I thought the government ruled my life. My mind is running pretty fast tonight from the high I got from this last class. Professors always say that when a teenager is in their first semester of college and they begin to learn how the world REALLY works- what really happened when Columbus landed in the West Indies, what REALLY happened when settlers pushed the Indians off their land and why young people protested Vietnam so adamantly- they say that these freshman kids want to go out and radically change the world in a day. Which is so true. However, I am 22 years old, I have gone through my fair share of college, and I still want to go out and change the world. I can't seem to come down from that.
I realize that I have not posted in a while, and I am sure you want an update more than a lesson in journalism, or history, or whatever. But it was on my mind... and you know how I get when I have somethin' on my mind.
I hope to be able to sit down and write a lot more as my journalism class progresses. As for now, I am extremely exhausted, so here is a short synopsis of my exciting life:
I work one job between to locations (lots of driving!), I go to open mic nights with my man on Monday and Thursday nights; right now I have my Journalism class on Wednesday nights and pretty soon I will have Political Science on Tuesday nights; I relax on the weekends and perfect my Mariokart skills with Donnie, and I have started watching 60 minutes on Sunday nights.
That just about sums it up. I am loving life right now, and I hope this blog finds you the same.
LOVELOVELOVE
C
I've been studying and analyzing the first amendment in the Constitution lately. It's amazing. The first 5 words of the first amendment are the most importantt: CONGRESS SHALL MAKE NO LAW....
Of course, you have to read the rest to figure out what Congress cannot do. 1) Congress cannot force any one religion on you. 2) Congress cannot take away your freedom of speech or press. 3) Congress cannot take away the right of the people peaceably to assemble and to petition the government for a redress of grievances.
And all this time I thought the government ruled my life. My mind is running pretty fast tonight from the high I got from this last class. Professors always say that when a teenager is in their first semester of college and they begin to learn how the world REALLY works- what really happened when Columbus landed in the West Indies, what REALLY happened when settlers pushed the Indians off their land and why young people protested Vietnam so adamantly- they say that these freshman kids want to go out and radically change the world in a day. Which is so true. However, I am 22 years old, I have gone through my fair share of college, and I still want to go out and change the world. I can't seem to come down from that.
I realize that I have not posted in a while, and I am sure you want an update more than a lesson in journalism, or history, or whatever. But it was on my mind... and you know how I get when I have somethin' on my mind.
I hope to be able to sit down and write a lot more as my journalism class progresses. As for now, I am extremely exhausted, so here is a short synopsis of my exciting life:
I work one job between to locations (lots of driving!), I go to open mic nights with my man on Monday and Thursday nights; right now I have my Journalism class on Wednesday nights and pretty soon I will have Political Science on Tuesday nights; I relax on the weekends and perfect my Mariokart skills with Donnie, and I have started watching 60 minutes on Sunday nights.
That just about sums it up. I am loving life right now, and I hope this blog finds you the same.
LOVELOVELOVE
C
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
Times, they are a changin'
A good friend once told me that you aren't going to tbe happy all of the time. My first response was that of the ultimate optimist. After I thought about it a little more, I realized that he is right. I am happy with where I am in life right now, but there is always a little something that I wish I could change: my job, my pay, gas prices, where I live, seeing my family, doing what I really want in life, changing my nail color, buying that cute necklace I wanted... There are always little things on my mind.
Today, as well as the rest of the week, my goal is to be happy with whatever I am doing and to free my mind. I am going to focus on what I have, what I do, what I need to do, and I will stop focusing on what I don't have, and what I can't do.
I don't have much to say other than that. Thanks for reading and sticking with me this long. It certainly means a lot to me.
LOVELOVELOVE
-C
Today, as well as the rest of the week, my goal is to be happy with whatever I am doing and to free my mind. I am going to focus on what I have, what I do, what I need to do, and I will stop focusing on what I don't have, and what I can't do.
I don't have much to say other than that. Thanks for reading and sticking with me this long. It certainly means a lot to me.
LOVELOVELOVE
-C
Monday, August 2, 2010
California looks good on you...
Thanks Megan. I needed to hear that. It's a funny feeling to go back to a place where you spent your whole life. You know every nook and cranny of the place, yet you are visiting. you're not staying... just stopping in to say hey.
I made my trip home to Alabama a couple weeks ago to visit my friends and family. It was such a wonderful trip! I got to be with my 2 neices and my lil man just about everday! I spent everyday with my mom, got to see my dad play drums and got to see some old friends. The week went by way too fast...
After that, I flew up to Illinois to drive out to California with Donnie. It was a very long road trip, but we had a great time and got to see some AMAZING scenery!
Iowa's sunrise was actually really pretty.
Packed packed packed in so tight.
CUTIE.
Colorado = LOVE.
Love my polaroid camera.
Utah!
Cool trees...
...and pretty flowers.
So Donnie is here for good. We've had lots of fun over the last week :) I am so excited to be hitting the beach soon. Work hours got cut a bit, which kind of sucks but at the same time it's nice to have a little free time. Ross, the other half of The Heroic Charade, is coming to visit in less than 2 weeks and my boy is on cloud nine.
Not too much going on right now... school starts in a few weks and I am actually pretty excited about it. The west coast is pretty mellow these days.
I wanna know how everyone is doing... Send me an email, a text, a banner in the sky... just about anythign will work. :)
LOVELOVELOVE
-C
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
God forbid you ever had to walk a day in his shoes...
Everything is dark.
It’s more than you can take.
But you catch a glimpse of sun light.
Shinin', down on your face.
Oh you’re in my veins
And I cannot get you out
Oh you’re all I taste
At night inside of my mouth
Oh you run away
Cause I am not what you found
Oh you’re in my veins
And I cannot get you out.
-Andrew Belle, In My Veins
Starting a blog is intimidating. Every time I sit here to write, I get really intimidated. By what exactly, I am not sure. Fear that my words won't come out right; fear that I won't get my point across- because I am far too talented at rambling; fear that I'll say something wrong, or not in the way that I mean it; or fear that my words won't mean anything. But they always do to me.
It's cold and rainy here today. Just the kind of day I have been waiting for. All I hear on work mornings are "Good morning! Gross day, huh?" And all I ever respond with is "If it were sunny, we'd all want to be at the beach. At least this way we can get some work done." I think some people find it extremely irritating that I can be positive on a cold and rainy day. But I can't seem to help that fact that it reminds me of home. Never thought you would hear me say something good about Alabama, huh? Well, it doesn't happen often, so soak it up.
I have lived in California for almost a full year and I have come to the realization that I am A.D.D. I mean this in the most un-medical way possible (does that make sense?) What I mean is, I was never diagnosed with A.D.D. as a child (my mother may beg to differ) but since moving here, I have realized that with most things that I do in life, with most things that I experience, I get bored too quickly and move on to the next fun thing I can get my hands on. I don't consider this a terrible thing at 22. I guess it's just what the world likes to call "figuring out who you are". Although, not entirely, because I know who I AM, I just want to further my understanding of how to use what I AM in my everyday life. That's a bit trickier.
There are some days when I sit and think of all the good things in my life, and suddenly I am on cloud nine. Some times, I will admit that I get caught up thinking about what I don't have, what I want, what other people have that I envy. This is the part where I throw a shout out to 2 amazing parents for making me sit through boring Sunday school to learn lessons like "Don't envy" "Don't be jealous of your friend because she has the newest, coolest toy and you don't"... things like that.
For the last 22 years, I have been learning patience. And I say the last 22 years because, well, I haven't quite gotten the hang of it. When I get an idea in my head, I have to run with it right then or 3 things could happen: 1) I forget about it the next day; 2) I lose passion for the idea and end up getting mad at myself down the road for not sticking with it, and 3) I fear it won't work out if I don't jump on the opportunity then. But it's taken me a while to realize that sometimes, good things come to those who WAIT. Good lord, waiting is not my forté.
There was this song that me and my brothers loved when we were younger and I don't remember much, but the chorus I remember like it's etched into my brain. HURRY UP AND WAIT. I feel like I do that a lot. Life is like a waiting game sometimes. you just wait... and wait....... and wait................. And sometimes it's really worth it, and other times it's not. But more often than not, the good things come to those who learn to just WAIT.
I guess I say all of that to say: WAIT. don't go through life too quickly. Don't get too A.D.D. with life. Enjoy what you are doing RIGHT NOW, for you may very well not be doing it tomorrow. Make the most of this situation you are in right now, no matter how tough it seems. Things are going to happen in life that aren't fair and you may find yourself saying "God, why me? What next God?" But things in life only last for a season, then before you know it, you are on the other end of it. I'll be honest and say that I have asked God those questions. Why do you hate me? Why are you putting me through this? Did I do something terribly wrong to deserve all of this?
I guess this is where faith comes in.
I learned that instead of saying 'Why me?', 'what next?' that I should just wait. I should wait and say 'Okay God, I know that what is happening is happening for a reason, and I may be a little unclear on that reason right now, so I am just going to wait until you do some magical fireworks to show it to me.' Boy, is that a hard pill to swallow. My impatient self wants to say WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON AND WHY DIDN'T ANYONE TELL ME THAT MY FUTURE PLANS WERE GOING TO DRASTICALLY CHANGE WITHIN A MATTER OF MINUTES??? But I have learned that that type of reaction will end with my medicine cabinet turned inside out looking for more Excedrin.
So I guess what I am trying to say is, just wait. Good things will come to you, but for now, just wait. Just love your life at the current moment. Love the people you surround yourself with. Love the parties you go to and the time you spend with your family. Love like you're getting paid Bill Gates' salary. I promise you, you won't regret it.
LOVELOVELOVE
-C
It’s more than you can take.
But you catch a glimpse of sun light.
Shinin', down on your face.
Oh you’re in my veins
And I cannot get you out
Oh you’re all I taste
At night inside of my mouth
Oh you run away
Cause I am not what you found
Oh you’re in my veins
And I cannot get you out.
-Andrew Belle, In My Veins
Starting a blog is intimidating. Every time I sit here to write, I get really intimidated. By what exactly, I am not sure. Fear that my words won't come out right; fear that I won't get my point across- because I am far too talented at rambling; fear that I'll say something wrong, or not in the way that I mean it; or fear that my words won't mean anything. But they always do to me.
It's cold and rainy here today. Just the kind of day I have been waiting for. All I hear on work mornings are "Good morning! Gross day, huh?" And all I ever respond with is "If it were sunny, we'd all want to be at the beach. At least this way we can get some work done." I think some people find it extremely irritating that I can be positive on a cold and rainy day. But I can't seem to help that fact that it reminds me of home. Never thought you would hear me say something good about Alabama, huh? Well, it doesn't happen often, so soak it up.
I have lived in California for almost a full year and I have come to the realization that I am A.D.D. I mean this in the most un-medical way possible (does that make sense?) What I mean is, I was never diagnosed with A.D.D. as a child (my mother may beg to differ) but since moving here, I have realized that with most things that I do in life, with most things that I experience, I get bored too quickly and move on to the next fun thing I can get my hands on. I don't consider this a terrible thing at 22. I guess it's just what the world likes to call "figuring out who you are". Although, not entirely, because I know who I AM, I just want to further my understanding of how to use what I AM in my everyday life. That's a bit trickier.
There are some days when I sit and think of all the good things in my life, and suddenly I am on cloud nine. Some times, I will admit that I get caught up thinking about what I don't have, what I want, what other people have that I envy. This is the part where I throw a shout out to 2 amazing parents for making me sit through boring Sunday school to learn lessons like "Don't envy" "Don't be jealous of your friend because she has the newest, coolest toy and you don't"... things like that.
For the last 22 years, I have been learning patience. And I say the last 22 years because, well, I haven't quite gotten the hang of it. When I get an idea in my head, I have to run with it right then or 3 things could happen: 1) I forget about it the next day; 2) I lose passion for the idea and end up getting mad at myself down the road for not sticking with it, and 3) I fear it won't work out if I don't jump on the opportunity then. But it's taken me a while to realize that sometimes, good things come to those who WAIT. Good lord, waiting is not my forté.
There was this song that me and my brothers loved when we were younger and I don't remember much, but the chorus I remember like it's etched into my brain. HURRY UP AND WAIT. I feel like I do that a lot. Life is like a waiting game sometimes. you just wait... and wait....... and wait................. And sometimes it's really worth it, and other times it's not. But more often than not, the good things come to those who learn to just WAIT.
I guess I say all of that to say: WAIT. don't go through life too quickly. Don't get too A.D.D. with life. Enjoy what you are doing RIGHT NOW, for you may very well not be doing it tomorrow. Make the most of this situation you are in right now, no matter how tough it seems. Things are going to happen in life that aren't fair and you may find yourself saying "God, why me? What next God?" But things in life only last for a season, then before you know it, you are on the other end of it. I'll be honest and say that I have asked God those questions. Why do you hate me? Why are you putting me through this? Did I do something terribly wrong to deserve all of this?
I guess this is where faith comes in.
I learned that instead of saying 'Why me?', 'what next?' that I should just wait. I should wait and say 'Okay God, I know that what is happening is happening for a reason, and I may be a little unclear on that reason right now, so I am just going to wait until you do some magical fireworks to show it to me.' Boy, is that a hard pill to swallow. My impatient self wants to say WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON AND WHY DIDN'T ANYONE TELL ME THAT MY FUTURE PLANS WERE GOING TO DRASTICALLY CHANGE WITHIN A MATTER OF MINUTES??? But I have learned that that type of reaction will end with my medicine cabinet turned inside out looking for more Excedrin.
So I guess what I am trying to say is, just wait. Good things will come to you, but for now, just wait. Just love your life at the current moment. Love the people you surround yourself with. Love the parties you go to and the time you spend with your family. Love like you're getting paid Bill Gates' salary. I promise you, you won't regret it.
LOVELOVELOVE
-C
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
23 Polaris Technology
IT WORKED!!! I don't know why I am amazed that just about anything I do on my phone will find it's way out into the cyber world and into the hands of others in 4 nano-seconds. It's just amazing!
Okay, if you don't already have this album then GET IT NOW. No questions asked. Jimmy Eat World - Futures
Specifically the songs Polaris and 23.
It will change your life!!! I know I say that about every song and all music- but it's true! If you let it, music can change your life!
I feel that when I'm old
I'll look at you and know
The world was beautiful
Then you tell me...
You say that love goes anywhere
In your darkest time, it's just enough to know it's there
When you go, I'll let you be
But you're killing everything in me
-Polaris
Amazing still it seems
I'll be 23
I won't always love what I'll never have
I won't always live in my regrets
You'll sit alone forever
If you wait for the right time
What are you hoping for?
I'm here I'm now I'm ready
Holding on tight
Don't give away the end
The one thing that stays mine
-23
I'm in love with music all over again.
LOVELOVELOVE
-C
Okay, if you don't already have this album then GET IT NOW. No questions asked. Jimmy Eat World - Futures
Specifically the songs Polaris and 23.
It will change your life!!! I know I say that about every song and all music- but it's true! If you let it, music can change your life!
I feel that when I'm old
I'll look at you and know
The world was beautiful
Then you tell me...
You say that love goes anywhere
In your darkest time, it's just enough to know it's there
When you go, I'll let you be
But you're killing everything in me
-Polaris
Amazing still it seems
I'll be 23
I won't always love what I'll never have
I won't always live in my regrets
You'll sit alone forever
If you wait for the right time
What are you hoping for?
I'm here I'm now I'm ready
Holding on tight
Don't give away the end
The one thing that stays mine
-23
I'm in love with music all over again.
LOVELOVELOVE
-C
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